A representation of life, beauty and fun.
I will be a work in progress until the day I leave this planet. I am human. I am imperfect. I am also kind, difficult, well-meaning, opinionated, compassionate, annoying, fun, and a host of other adjectives that might or might not be acceptable to some. I can’t help that. I don’t own another person’s perception of who I am. I own MY perception of who I am.
I am also, most often, the first one to admit and point out my mistakes. I have discovered in the last year or so that I have a voice, and it’s as valid as anybody’s. I think my biggest mistake is that I haven’t really learned to stand up for my beliefs when someone disagrees with me; I buckle under and back off in order to keep the peace. If I’m going to call it like I see it, I need to stand by it.
There are some things that have had a profound affect on my life, and I’m working through them as best I can. Sometimes it’s not pretty. My intentions never come from hurtfulness or wanting to crush people. I’m just giving myself permission to have opinions and state them clearly, and sometimes that doesn’t sit well. Like I said, I can’t help that, but I haven’t totally learned to accept it yet so it occasionally comes across in an awkward way.
This is how I learn: Act, fuck up, analyze, repeat. Eventually I figure it out.
How do you learn from your mistakes?